Depression

Sometimes I wish that my emotions could be turned on and off quickly, and only used in situations in which I need them. Right about now I'm going through a rough spot. I've been undergoing some slight endogenous and agitated depression, both of which have thankfully not been too severe. I think its because emotionally, I've suddenly cut myself off from a resource, and now I'm kind of scavenging to find things to fill up a now empty part of me. On top of that, I'm really just going through a stage of realization. I'm learning all the things I've been told all my life now for the first time. Things are beginning to make sense in the world for me at large. Right now I'd say I'm cruising on passive action, and thankfully not falling to far behind in life because of it. Honestly, most people with conditions like my own have at least a few bouts of depression in his or her life time. Really, I'm lucky to experience this at a time in my life when it won't really effect me too much. Right now though, its a matter of moving on emotionally from several things, and I'm happy to at least conciously be able to accept and deal with my fate. Right now though, its just a matter of getting my conscious and subconscious on the same level.

So, how does one deal with depression and feelings of emotional dissatisfaction? Easy. Keep yourself busy. Force yourself out of bed, despite the fact you don't want to. Try new things, try and be yourself, and do things you would normally do. Don't just sit at home and worry about shit. The reason I'm writing this is because so many people don't realize that they have depression, and end up getting a lot worse and result to drastic measures, like self mutilation, and attempts/thoughts of suicide. I feel like if more people knew about this, so many people would be happier with their lives. Not to over diagnose things either though, because doctors need to be careful with that, because they can convince a patient that they have an illness they really don't. Its good to be wary though, and to know about things that are so common, especially during the teenage years.